outisde in

Saturday, April 25, 2015

outisde in

 

I wake up
no..this is not true
I don't really ever wake up
no.
not anymore
the pills 
the pills just wear off.
and I become semi conscious .
hear and see things briefly.
take a fist full of pills and wait to fall back.
fall back to what?
I am not sure
                                                                                                                   none of this is occurring
                                                                                                                   I do not see and hear things
                                     I write what I write to add backstory
                                             so my art will sell
                                                as I have been told that my kind of art 
                                                   doesn't sell on it's own merit


but requires some candor on  my part
as if to fill to color within the lines 
of the comic called Outisder art.
some candor that I am unbalanced.
unschooled...undomesticated...                                                         the "he soo cwazzzy shit 



                                                                                                           having a unique spin ..that 
                                                                                  possibly involved genuine a type of 
                                                                        synthesized schizophrenia that XXXX read about
in The Atlantic was XXXX's idea
as that year
at the Outsider Art Show in New York
there was a plethora of Psychotics
doing somewhat rote paintings of
the feral kind                                                                   XXXX suggested I throw an ashtray at
                                                                                  ex lover at some bar...and make sure the 
                                                                                  it his ex -just hard enough that an assault 
charge could be just "non misdemeanor" ish
enough that I could spend some time in prison
and therefore have some "cred' concerning
jail time to add to my Outsider Art ..backstory.
                                                                        but things went wrong and the damn bartender ducked
                                                                        ashtray....even though XXXX has told him he'd get a cut 
if I received a 16 month sentence
and could "do my fill" of drawings and sketches on 'bed linens
and those handkerchief things hippies and next thug life" 
often have
on their person.......                                            


 

Casper the Friendly Ghost

The sound of someone crying  quickly distracted him. Running over to the edge of the rooftop Danny looked down and what he saw felt like it cracked his core. Down in the alley way was a child crouching over two larger forms Danny could only assume were the boy's parents. Floating down behind the boy Danny fell to his knees.

The sadness, and absolute despair the boy was sending out in waves practically broke Danny. “Hey.” Danny spoke in the most comforting voice he had, which he often used with the new ghost children that would manifest in the ghost zone confused and hurt and sad.

The boy wiped his head around Danny was afraid he was going to get whiplash, when Danny spoke.

“Who, who are you?” The boy asked with an obvious tremble in his words. It made Danny’s core and heart race.

“I’m Danny, who might you be?” Danny asked with a smile while sending waves of calm, and safety at the boy.

The boy sniffled before answering. “Bruce.”

“That's a very nice name, now Bruce could you tell me what happened?” He asked with as much reasherence as possible, he did not want the boy to think he was going to hurt him,

so this lyle.he's in some wb ctw some horseshit drama series he plays a teen type though he is 31 years old.
actually he is 42 but if I go there
proxy will
k-k-k-k-ill me
but they already iz ...
i have like 5 bucks in my pocket and have to walk to LA it seems for this trial
pre trial
of my crimes
you'd think van nuys

my crime
breaking a window.

absinthe
beer
and kinda strong bud from the dispencery

what can u do?

                  Workin for proxy t is like working for some shitty spy movie where they make the guy
walk around like some
idea of

of some crazy man's
senso of
a
loser hobo bum
cept there are no more hobos or bums
it's against the law
to be homeless.







sinister
is so last year damien says for no reason

sinister is a FEELING

the price of cigareetes went up 9 cents in a town outside of river dale.
and a band of white bandits
smashed a wooden indian into the ciagar shoppe's window
and stole every gram of tobacco
nothing else

my nephew had a nightmare.

toy story

it scares him.

it is loud and fast and furious.his dreams are like that my sister in law says

we don't know what to do.

either do i sweetie

maybe you should stop

the rebop

lyle hampton is in Beauty as well.the young gyu.what kinda name is lyle
i thought we were over the kid stuff lover
no lover
and noooo i think i'll stick to the soda pop
dadd
gooooood boi he says
did u lick my ear or are u just glad to see me

boy
these actors
and scribes
nothing hotter than an actor scribe

JIM did you give the kids sugar pops in the middle of the night
they wanted it

it's like 6 30 or so..i have to l;ike look good or something for court in a coupla days and have no real way of getting a hotel in LA
my ID was stolen by the BROOD

How was the pool Joan I saw cleaning the sugar pop and pieces of pop tart of the linoleum
joan pours herself some wine.me some coffee from the machine near the hot tub.
Jake Stevens who played Evan actually levitated
literally
10 feet high

big fuckin deal i think looking for fuckin quarters

Odrian granyay or whatever his name is...he looks like i dont know ..italian..something.his eyes are ...something...;;;;
anyway.theyre both cast

i picutre them cast
like staues for eeetunity.
which they are

into the pool productions presents

"the trouble with harry".
                                             Odrien garnier as Harry
                                            

can u watch the kids
yeah
dean and joan say we have to go to the pool
why can't i ever go to these things
it's very shallow
we're not in the deep end

know what .whatever.I smiled tightly but sincerely.